i'm not loving you (my mask)
Performed by Esha
Written by Esha Alwani

 

I think I took my mask off too soon, cause you were there and then you were not
I think I pushed all onto you, I should have dragged it out
dragged it out
I think that I maybe each time I lose a bit myself put it back on
Just to fake till I break my own heart in two

 

And oh I wanted you
To know the real me
And take it seriously

 

But now
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I thought I could trust you
but you’re running away from me and my mask
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
right now

 

I think I took my mask off too soon because you screamed when I pulled it off
You told me you were unprepared and like that
 just like that
I think that maybe this time it hurt more than it has before
I think maybe this blow I took was a little more
a little more

 

And oh I wanted you
To know the real me
And take it seriously

 

But now
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I thought I could trust you
but you’re running away from me and my mask
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
I’m not loving you
right now